In my quest for knowledge I have embarked on a journey of understanding, imagination, motor skills and artistic ability. I am enrolled in a...Cake Decorating Class! I've made stars. I've made borders. I've made roses and written a message. I have baked, layered, frosted, decorated and ate four cakes in the past month. Yet I am STILL not at the capacity of my knowledge! Class continues for a few more weeks until we are all able to make the perfect "every occasion" cake, "clown" cake and "doll" cake. The knowledge available is (not quite) limitless!

Now, the pictures you are about to see aren't quite Susie Homemaker. I'm more...avant garde. When Mrs. Lex (yes, I call her Mrs. Lex) tells me to use green for the leaves, I say "WOMAN! I will use purple for my leaves if I so choose!" Then she looks at me over the rim of her glasses and I mix enough green frosting to fill a rose garden. So enjoy and feel free to contact me for your next occasion! I make pretty stars*

Different day, same battles

You wouldn't have to read more than three or four of my posts to know that I have NO clue as to what I'm supposed to be doing with my life. But, when I got the go ahead to leave CO and move to MN, I knew things were changing! God was speaking in a voice that I was able/willing to hear!

Granted my first week or so was rough. It took me awhile to get out of my funk (which never fully left till March!). But things were rolling! Things were happening! I was seeing God working around me!

My first week in town at my brother's indoor soccer game, I met a supervisor for one of the labs at Mayo! We talked about soccer, my work experience and how to get a job at Mayo. He gave me his card and told me to send him my info and that he'd take a look and help me out! A few emails later...It didn't work out.

So I keep applying for jobs. I'm spreading out into surrounding communities now.

The day after my birthday I received a phone call from a fella asking me out! We met for an awkward cup of coffee, we emailed, sent messages on Facebook. He turned out to be sweet, nice, honest, a gentleman. And he has this dry sense of humor that is pretty great. A few dates later...It didn't work out.

So I keep envisioning my life single. Living the Colleen version of Wild and Carefree.

I started looking at my finances to see about getting an apartment. I wrote out all my expenses and my income. A few calculations later...It didn't work out.

So I continue my life in the basement. Actually, this one is an awesome blessing!

The question is and always has been - What do you want from me?!? What am I doing wrong? What am I missing? How am I supposed to be growing during this period that I'm just not getting?!

I had the thought tonight that I'm pretty oblivious to things happening in my life. What I mean is, I don't see the lessons that I could/should be learning. I keep using the excuse, "Well I've been on my own for so long..." Am I supposed to be learning to share again? Have I become selfish with my life? Do I need to work on my communication and people skills more? Why is my job so hard for me? What can I be taking from that?

Surprise surprise. More questions. Maybe I should've been a journalist. I (half) jokingly ask people to talk to God about me and to come back with an answer. But, if anybody has any words of wisdom, I could use a book worth! Oh wait. I think that's called the Bible!

Peace out friends. May God speak to you in a language that you can/are willing to hear. <><

The Name Game

I was reading an article in the NY Times the other day about how people forge "bonds" with others who have the same name. And these "others" are found via the internet. One of the craziest things is, the similarities found between the Googlegangers. Yes! there's a term for people with similar names. Similarities range from hobbies, to professions, to spouses!

So in the spirit of finding my other selves I googled! And I am stunned. And I am freaked. Here are my reults:
The first hit is for a spelling bee contestant in NY. I am also a spelling bee champion.
Second hit is a gal who graduated in 1971 from a Pittsburgh HS. I like cheesesteak sandwiches. (ok, so that one's reaching!)
Third...head coach for Eastern Oregon soccer team! Word to the third on that one:)
A tax deviant also pops up. I claim NO likability to that one!
A Maid of Honor, clothes designer, Katrina victim, math whiz, dead.
The real me pops up on pages 1 and 2! A facebook result, Roch Community Band and for this blog.

I have no message. No "Moral of the Story" or "Meaning of Life" to relay. I guess it's take it or leave it. This could prove that we are all somehow connected. This could prove nothing. I just thought it was an interesting/cool article! Maybe you'd like to check it out!

http://www.nytimes.com/2008/04/10/us/10names.html?_r=2&scp=2&sq=same+name&st=nyt&oref=slogin&oref=slogin

I got a massage today. She started pulling sections of hair to "loosen my scalp". Apparently tight scalp is a bad thing...But now my hair is up in a ponytail and my scalp feels tight. I think I like the idea of a loose scalp.